On some real shit, about 3 or 4 years ago I was homeless working at Micky D's, sleeping in the bathroom, cemetery and behind 7/11 and to top it off I had 2 kidney surgery's in between that time span.
The straw that broke that camel's back was I had just finished an 8 hour late night shift at Micky D's and it was raining outside. I felt like shit and was so tired at that point I went to the hospital. I took a urine sample and I am not lying or over exaggerating when I tell you it was BLACK.
Turns out a stint they put in after the 2nd surgery got loose and was causing mayhem. After all of that my parents finally agreed to let me move back home. I had to rough it out there for a little while while having 3 kidney surgery's and working at Mickey D's.
Depression and anxiety we're like my left and right hand. But I knew I had to keep strong. I did and I tried hard damn it, my point is that you need a mental guard up. You need to set up limitations and sceneries and figure out what your breaking point is before it happens and how to just flat out avoid it. Talk to a therapist and let them help you same with a psychiatrist, just let them help you. Make sure your family knows and make sure they know what to look out for if you start getting depressed or anxious
There is no shame is asking for help not matter how far you have fallen, where you are or if you're even just confused or frustrated and just want to talk to someone. Just know this, all those stupid cheesy sayings people like to throw at you are true. Things will get better. Tomorrow is another day. Just hang in there.
Just stay strong